Tuesday, January 4, 2022
I’m writing this the day before my surgeon appointment and I keep thinking of the song from the play/movie “Annie”: “Tomorrow.” “Tomorrow, tomorrow…you’re always a day away.”
Well, tomorrow will soon be “today” and I will see the surgeon. I’ve been mulling over my excitement about that appointment. It doesn’t seem right; it seems strange to be thinking, “I’m excited.” Yes, I’m nervous also. And it does help that my cancer (at this point in my understanding ) is treatable with a lumpectomy and radiation. My life is not in danger. I haven’t been given a death sentence. Of course, we all have a death sentence over our heads. It can’t be avoided. How appropriate that our pastor will soon begin a new sermon series on Ecclesiastes. Just read that biblical book and you’ll be convinced we all have a death sentence yet God offers joy in this life. (PS I don’t mean to belittle or disregard whatever horrible fear you are facing right now. My heart is with you.)
Pastor Alistair Begg, preaching on Ecclesiastes says, “The fear of God puts all the other fears in place.” And I would add, “puts them all in their rightful place…in subjection at the throne of God.”
But to come back to my point, I think I’ve identified my excitement about this appointment tomorrow which is my first with the surgeon. I’m anticipating my surgery will be scheduled.
With this expectation, I see tomorrow as the next step in this project.
I’m seeing this journey, from the viewpoint of a recovering perfectionist, as the next 1% step in accomplishing the goal of being cancer-free. Yes, be assured I’ve been praying and asking for instant healing (100%) all along. I’ve thought, “Wonder if the surgeon says, Ya know what? After reviewing all the test results, I don’t think you have cancer at all. So goodbye and have a great life.” I would love that. “God, you could do that.” So far that doesn’t seem to be the case. And I’m content.
So without hearing those words, I’m abiding in trusting that God is guiding and leading. From that abiding come peace and confidence. And yes, call me crazy, but even excitement.
Please pray for Larry and I as we see Dr. Kelly Carman tomorrow/Wednesday afternoon, 1pm (Mountain time) Jan. 5. That our ears will be able to hear clearly what is communicated to us and our minds will be enlightened by the Holy Spirit to know what we need to ask. Also, for the scheduling to be controlled by God’s sovereign, good plan.
Thank you so much! Knowing you care and are praying for all of this is comforting and I feel loved and cared for.
Thanks for the update Kathy! I will be praying for your time with the doctor tomorrow and for continued peace on this new journey, wherever it takes you. Praying that you will feel God’s presence at all times. 🙏🏻
Thank you, Lana. That means so much!
I will be praying and have been praying.
Thank you, Sherri, for your loving prayer support. It means a lot! Keep it up.
I love, Love, LOVE your attitude!
thanks for putting the link in FB. I’ll be following to see how things go.
Thank you, Trudie and Duane. You are precious friends. Your support and encouraging words means so much.
Kathy, thanks for sharing and helping us to know when, how, and what to pray for. I love the card my Sherry sent me and it truly is my “go-to.” “ THERE IS UNWAVERING PEACE TODAY, WHEN A UNCERTAIN TOMORROW IS TRUSTED TO AN UNCHANGING GOD.” I find rest in that although sometimes it takes me a little bit to really get to that point and put my trust totally in His hands. Love you and Larry and will for sure pray for ALL involved. Trust you both find that UNWAVERING PEACE.🤗🙏🏼
Wow, Jeanna, that is truly a fabulous quote. Thank you for sharing it with all of us because we are all in some kind of uncertainty. Love you!
Kathy, Thanks for the update. Jerry and I will definitely be praying for positive outcomes as you journey along this path. As usual, your courage, spunk and faith clearly shines throughout your words. God has got this! He knows the plans he’s had for you all along. Sending our love to you and Larry.
Hi Jenny and Jerry. We love you and are so grateful for your loving prayer support. Only knowing the Lord’s “got this” gives us peace.
All the AWSA sisters and I are praying for you. Love you so very much!
Thank you, Linda, that means so much and I feel so supported!
Thank you for the update! We love you both and are praying for you!
Thank you dear friends. We value your prayers so much.
Kathy, thank you for this beautiful and uplifting post! It truly is exciting to know that whatever our circumstances are, or become, that God is in control! Joining you in your excitement as you move forward with 1 % advancement! Standing in prayer with you and sending all my love, my friend!
Thank you, Jennifer. You are also moving forward in 1% as you wait upon the Lord for the healing of your eye and hand. You always inspire me! Standing with you also.
Dear Kathy,
It’s so wonderful that you have your sweet husband with you. I didn’t have that comfort. But, God knew. My wonderful daughter, Andrea, and my loving friend, Sherrie Cloud, were with me through it all. Yes, I agree that God could heal you right now. And, why shouldn’t we pray to that end? God, your family, your friends will bring you through this. And, you know what else? Laughter! Ask Sherrie some day what went on in the infusion room. I’m praying for you, my friend. Actually, I always have prayed for you, Larry, and your family. Now, more specifically for you!
Loving is Sharing,
Maria
I need Sherrie in my “room.” So far no need for me for chemo but if I have to have it, I’ll transport a clone of Sherrie to be at my side. She always keeps us in stitches. Thank you for your loving words. I am indeed so grateful for Larry’s loving support and wisdom. God was so good to you to bring supportive friends since you are without your best friend–who was such a great friend to all of us. Love you!
I’m wrapping you up in love and hugs and surrounding you with prayers of healing and peace. You are dearly loved.❤️
Oh, Carol, that means so much. I am truly overwhelmed with all the expressions of support and love. Thank you!
We are standing in the gap for you dear friend!
Thank you, dear Missi, I sure know it! Thank you. Your love blesses me so much.
Thanks for updating us. You, Larry and the surgeon are in my prayers!! Love you, sister!!!
Thank you, Carol. Love you, sister!
Praying for you in this part of your journey for healing and peace of mind so others will see our Lord Jesus in you.
Thank you, Marjorie, that is exactly my desire and passion. I believe He is using all this already and it’s very encouraging.
Kathy,
My good friend had the exact same diagnose as you 2 years ago. She came out of this just fine and the same will happen for you!
I hope that you can sense all the people that are praying for you! Big hug!,
Mona.
Mona, I love hearing those stories of God’s work. Thank you for the encouragement! Yes, I do feel very loved.
Praying for His peace to surround you and that He will be glorified in the process and in your healing. Thank you for the privilege of being able to take your name to the throne~
Thank you, Lisa. I’m privileged to be lifted up before the throne. It lifts my spirits and encourages my heart.
Praying for you, Kathy and sending love!
Melanie
Thank you, Melanie. I sense your love and support. God is answering “yes” and I”m so grateful. I’m glad we’re friend and you share your wisdom.
Kathy, Sue & I have always loved your 1% illustration. We were reminded of it when we visited a tin mine in Cornwall (the type of mine that Sue’s great-great grandfather worked in). It was incredibly difficult work. They had to climb DOWN ladders for 45 minutes just to get to where they work. They had to pay for and make their own candles if they wanted any light. Dug out tons and tons of dirt, and all the tin that they got out of all that dirt was just 1%. But to them it was worth it. We thought of you them (in 2005). You now have a lot of work ahead, but 1% is still worth it. May those 1%’s add up to eventual remission.
Gil, I LOVE that illustration! It was worth it! I hope they earned enough to provide for their families. Sounds like a movie drama for sure. What a powerful legacy for Sue and her family.
You and Sue are so special to us and we remember sweet times together giving God honor. Thank you for supporting us in prayer!
Praying like you taught me.
Oh wow, that’s so meaningful, Joanne. How special to think of that. Thank you!
So sad you have to walk this path. Love you and pray God’s mercy.
Thank you, Kat, for your compassionate heart.
Praying early each morning sweet friend, for you both as all y’all journey through this together. God’s blessings.
Thank you, J.D. Your prayers are effective!
Holding you up on your journey. Thankful too, it is not a death sentence. God is good and He has a purpose and plan for such experiences. You will glide right through all this. And, talking to other women who’ve experienced the same is so helpful, even though each journey is unique and different. May the Lord keep you close.
Thank you, dear Merry. I praise God for you. So true that God has used the insights of others on a similar yet different path to bolster me in faith. I feel very loved on so many fronts.